Today is Halloween. I am looking forward to so many things as the weather turns cold. I look forward to waking up to a cold room because I like to sleep with windows open. I look forward to seeing all the Christmas decorations and sales begin. I look forward to my favorite holiday, Thanksgiving.
I feel good in my life. I cry a little every day. Sometimes I actually create a situation where I know I will cry. I will put on sappy love songs or religious songs that talk about missing a loved one. I think it is ok to evoke these emotions. I want to make sure that I feel the pain of losing Paul. I want to remember how much I love him and miss him. Then when I am done, I turn the songs off and move forward with my life. I hope it is a healthy grief. So stupid that I have to worry about grieving properly so I don't become some freak who never gets over my husband's death.
I enjoy my dog. He has a couple of issues, like chewing everything up. But he keeps me company and spends every moment he can with me. I love that he loves me. And I love that I have someone to hug when I need a little hug.
Random. Sorry.
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